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Dreamboat
03:32
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Dreamboat --
I spent years drinkin', even though I shouldn't have
As a character trait, I think, was that good or bad?
Well, without it I probably wouldn't have
The focus that I have to truly live 'cause I was good as dead
So, I wrote, and then I wrote again, I had to
Think what wasn't quoted yet, by
Any other person, who ever had to go through that
I hadn't even told my story yet, but I
Felt like everybody heard it, or like the whole world had
I'm just another white rapper, lookin' at his wrist watch
Watchin' time go by while Mack goes platinum off of Thrift Shop
And I think, I started out with that dude
And then I think again, damn, my time must be past due
I feel like, what worm hole did I just pass through?
It's like the timeline my life was on just went as-kew
Shit, this is what my life has amassed-to?
Starting over at 29, trying to push my tracks through?
Some people call that laughable, and that it's unimaginable
I'd have to be a fool to think that I can do what rappers do
But I can, 'cause it ain't the skill of the man it's the will of the man with a
Helluva plan, to build up n' stand on top the product he built with his hands
See, the best part about me
Is that I'm all about seeing...and reaching for the hologram things
That which can't be touched by this olive drabbed me
I'm a soldier, in the trenches of my dream scape
Crawling through the gunfire, 'cause I gotta keep pace
Time is not a luxury, I gotta stay alive because I'm
Fighting with myself to never see my vision die
I feel like I've gotta catch up, but I'm stuck up in slow motion
Grindin' all this rust off, I'm cussin', there's no motion
I just wanna blast off, and justify this whole thing
Take my boat and cast off, sailing on my own dream
And now, I can teach others who don't believe
To hop on my boat, grab an oar and row with me
I don't take kindly to those like, "woe is me..."
Or words like "maybe", "we'll see", or "hopefully"
"Hopefully" is for the skeptical, "maybe's" for the unsure
"We'll see" is for the wary, and all have only one cure
Which is to put the work in like you're training for Olympics
Put all of the doubt and all the pain up in this instant
It's nobody but you, so all the haters get a digit
The middle one, 'cause no one's gonna stop this train n' engine
But if I can make a difference, breathe the life back in a ghost
See, it started with this phantom, if I can be that little hope
That little light that little glimmer, in the middle of the winter
That froze over someone's soul and then just livin' turned 'em bitter
Then I did my part, I brought 'em up out the ice age
I thawed 'em from the inside, and I got 'em back to life, rain
Smiles, came, bright, unstrained, price...less...man (main)
So I'm sittin' on my dream boat, once it was a raft
And then a skiff, and then a sloop, soon a yacht and then a ship
You can hop up on my boat, because I need a crew of dreamers
You can navigate with me while we achieve a new demeanor
And it's a gonna be a struggle, through the sea and through the storm
The structure just might buckle, while we teeter through the course
That we have set to reach our destination, yes, there is no going back
Yes, this is a test of patience, will you go on knowing that?
And now the question raises, do you have the will to do this?
Do you have the fight within to do this 'til it kills you? Prove it!
So I'm just sitting on my dream boat, floating towards the sunset
Forever chasing dreams until I'm down to only...one...breath...
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Erasing
03:43
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Verse 1--
I, I got the past behind me, got me lookin' at that shit up in the rear view, not
Every little granule of dust has settled, but, lookin' to the future gotta clear view
And I'm only askin' where to, got the open road in front of me, n' a tank of gas
All cylinders burnin' me externally, internally, and I'm only letting up if my ankle snaps
My foot'll take a nap, on the pedal, then I sped up n' I'm blazin' past
And you know that I be murderin' the beat, and I do it in a mothafuckin' Jason mask
See I betcha everybody remembers, when I was drinking my face off, the
Bottle was tethered, to my hand, never sober I was modeling when a
Problem's obviously turned to a deadily venom
But, this about erasing, chasing
Things up ahead you know are waiting, pacing
Around the room gotta stop debating, take things
Why the fuck we waiting? There ain't a cure for aging
I ain't doin' maybes, money over ladies
After I get paid they're the ones who be chasing
Runnin' after me try'na get up in the mercedes
Let's mothafuckin' live like they did in the eighties
Man, I got my eyes face front
Drivin' like you would up in a ar-cade-son
Try'na make this my occ u pa tion, lookin'
Forward to the day my fuckin' star-date-comes
'Til then I'm gonna gun-it I'm comin'-runnin' the colors
Together I'm fuckin' thunderin, son-of-bitch is punchin' it-
Comin' quick, a hund-a-red plus, go
Runnin' for coverage you ain't fuckin' wit us!
Verse 2--
There ain't no goin' back then...nah, there isn't
Why the hell would I go back there? I'm on a mission
Tired lookin' at these crack-heads, n' tweakers always itchin'
Drugs takin' out my best friends, they drop off, invisi-
-ble status, givin' into this habit, then they ghost out like phantoms
Sat with a friend, up in a meetin', n' saw her leg kick n' spasm
Asked her if she really wanted it, but then she didn't really want it-
'Cause she couldn't imagine
Livin' her life without a needle in her arm, pushin' that H that magic-
Intravenous, she sinkin' deeper, but she doesn't ever really wanna sober up
Then she runs away, does anybody know where she is? Man, no-one does
Just another one erased, without a soul, it got sold for drugs, it's so-
Sad to see someone's baby-unaccounted for, 'cause she's gone for good
Man, you think I wanna stick around, and live without goals bitchin' out?
Watching everybody just stick it out, and settle for a life because they chickened out?
Man, I'm gonna live without, fear or, wondering what if it's now, or-
Never, there's never gonna be a better time to fuckin' get up n' get it ya gotta live for now!
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3. |
Déjà Vu
02:25
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I remember that day, was waiting for a cafe latte
You were paying for a grande moche, but you were short on some change
N' when you looked back to me, in the middle of askin' me, for a
Dime or quarter, I caught a glimpse of us, together so happily
I was lookin' in your eyes, and, you were lookin' in mine
And right at that time, a song came on, it went, wouldn't it be nice to
Live together, in a kind of world where we belong, remember that
Night up in September, where we just danced along?
Seemed like the night would last forever, and we were laughin' all, the way into
The morning light at seven, you finally fell asleep inside my arms, and when I
Opened my eyes, you kissed me, with my cheeks inside your palms
She said, "I hope you missed me." Well, you were in my dreams so I propose, that we
Stay in bed all day, we'll order in, you can
Take a bath with rose pe-tals-babe, Imma
Show you I love you in all the li-ttle-ways, from
Winter to summer, and all the mi-ddle-days
Just keep ya body next to mine, keep, ya skin on my skin all day, n'
Keep ya lips locked to mine, 'cause, they're sweeter than a bag of, Ski-ttles-taste
Now, let's fast forward, see champagne and hor d'oeuvres
Well, that was what we ordered-was an elegant wedding, family, friends and more turned-
Out to hear two words repeated, so it was really more like four words
"I do" and "I do," now, kiss the bride that's knockout gor-geous
And as we danced the floor turned, all eyes on us
As I took her for-a-turn, everyone put their i-Phones up
N' hit the video recorder, capture us as an item, just
Us two, n' I'm drunk off her, I'm buzzed, like drinking from a styrofoam cup
It's magical, I put her up on a pedestal
N' she leads me to a steppin' stone, so we're equally incredible
It's so effortless, what we have it's al-
Most like dream, when it comes to ma wife and me, we're just symmetrical
It's magical, I put her up on a pedestal
N' she leads me to a steppin' stone, so we're equally incredible
It's so effortless, what we have it's al-
Most like dream, 'cause it is in my mind I'm dreamin', to reality I have to go BACK!
Adjust my eyes, I'm standin' in amongst this line
I'm lookin' at the girl in front of me, tear her purse apart, just to buy
A grande mocha, but she's ten cents short
So I dig into my pocket n' I realize the change I brought was ten cents more, than I
Needed, n' she needs it more me, this feels repeated
When I tap her on the shoulder to greet her and, give her my dime-I swear I've seen her
Somewhere else, maybe in a past life, I don't know-resilience
Has me askin' her, "Have we ever met before?...you look so familiar..."
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4. |
Dropping Everything
03:26
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V.1
I've, got, this chick's lipstick on my cheek, when she
Licks lips, gets this, boy high feve-r
In an instant, I'm hit with, wifey,
I-ma-ges, gotta see if she likes-me
Hi...I'd, like to get to know you, when you
Walk, by-I dial in like a modem, we could
Talk 'bout, anything and everything-I'm
Keeping in the cuss words, fuck with all the editing-is
That your phone buzzin' baby? do me one and let it ring-it's
You and me here, like the Beatles just let it be
You're heavenly, baby let's take it to the mezzanine-where
Nobody is, my heart's thumpin', I think medically-it's
Called butterflies, butcha eyes, are setting me
Straight, I'm calm, like the setting is set at sea
I'm #feelingamazing with hash tags, I let it tweet
@MyBaby, girl you're way too fine
V.2
Girl, I don't really mind if Imma chase ya, just-
Turn-around once in awhile so I can face ya -
Take ya - to my neighborhood my peeps'll make ya-
Feel like a queen among people who embrace ya-
Show you to my pad, pop a bottle-of-bubbly-while ya
Model-in-fronna-me, what you got-on-it's-lovely, got-me-
Hot-all-up-underneath gotta loosen the tie
Gotta seat on my lap, if you're choosin' to ride
Feel the heat of your breath, as you're losin' the fight -
To control - got me trippin' like, Lucy in the Sky with-
Diamonds, baby put you in the ride we drivin'
To the coast, got the sky behind us, n' the beach is on a-
Line of, site with the condo
Lead me to the bedroom and I'm gonna follow, baby-
Show me where the magic happens, all you gotta do is
Bat ya lashes, and I'm on ya in a flash because you're way too fine.
Bridge
She's the one that I got in my sights baby-got me
Droppin' everything just to be with this fine lady-she
Got the looks workin', below the surface, she vivacious
I'm aimin' to be the father of nine babies
My baby, don't give a shit about Mer-cedes
Or guap makin', but she like when I talk bay-ish
Yadid-I'm sayin', she stole my heart with a five-fanga
Discount, hey!
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5. |
That's Gatsby!
02:56
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6. |
Living in the Beat
03:37
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7. |
Break Me
03:46
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8. |
Time
02:56
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You know I once heard a proverb that read:
Yesterday is history, tomorrow's a mystery
And today is a gift, because it is the present...
But I guess that's the struggle...
Amidst all of grinding and hustling...I still gotta find time to breathe...
Sometimes, I don't got time to think sometimes
Go a whole damn week without an inkling I, know
Who am, or know what's really on my mind
All I can say is I get up to do it one more time
See, for me it's my music, my self and my fam
And I'm attached to my craft like an umbilical man
If you don't like it there's no time to build up a plan
Gotta keep my arrow pointed up like the symbol for man
But amidst all of the hustlin' and makin' my goals
It seems time doesn't have a way to place it on hold
I see whole days slip through my fangas and go
Down as days where I didn't have a break of my own
Might've been a mistake of my own, this pursuit of my dreams
While working two jobs that're just the root to a means
To an end, and if I gotta sacrifice my minutes
Then I will, hold on, I still got a bite to finish
Hook--
I want to, be with you
I know you, had dinner made to be...for two, sorry baby
TIme is my friend, but really more like my enemy
And the less that I have, I'm acting less like a gentleman
More like an asshole, wish time had a capsule, that I can
Sit and chill, that's probably why I can act so
Stand offish, man conver-sation's so damn awkward
You say you can offer, but I don't make plans off it
I say with my hands stop it, this never will work, I swear I'm
Cold as the body that's occupyin' a vamp's coffin
My intentions are good, but, I'm pensive as hell
Because time's too precious for me to spend it in jail
Can't be a prisoner here, inside of my skin
I gotta roam free baby, it's my right as a man, but if you're
Ride or die, maybe we can modify, my
Views on relationships, shit, all we got is time
N' maybe it's time to make time insignificant
The timing is perfect because I'd like to get intimate with you
You know, we always act like we're too busy but...we're not lol.
Hook--
I want to, be with you
I'm gon do, the things, I said I would do...
I won't screw, this up, just please, can you
Guide me through, lead me, to you
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9. |
Posturing
03:23
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For the longest time, I was the nice guy
I'd be the first to diffuse her low lights, with high fives
Be the shoulder she could cry on, and as she dried her eyes
On my shirt, she'd ask, "will I ever find the right guy?"
Ouch, guess I was just a listener
But when she said that, my heart got hella blisters, 'cause it
Burned me, not first, second, but third degree, when I asked her
"What about me?" It's like she'd never heard of me
"You?" She said.
But at that time, I never told her I had imagined us as newly-weds
I never told her that every time her man fucked up, it was
My words, that he said to you instead, of
Me sayin' 'em, I always told her he was a stupid man
Especially while I held her, when her soul feelin' was blue n' black
I loved her, no matter what mood she was in
But all she ever said to me was, "I love you too...as friends"
Hook--
I, just wanna be that guy
With the suit and with the neck tie
The one that every girl likes
And
I, just wanna be the mack type
He can always make 'em act right
Isn't he lucky or am, I, blind?
I look back at what I came from, and
Realize that over the years I became numb
I look at girls who love me, like they're the strange ones
LIke why would you love a man, who's strayed so far away from, what he
Used to be? I've loved women since, like, day one
Maybe that's my flaw, I often get mistaken for a
Free ride, a meal ticket, or a pay stub
S'why gentlemen are dying...they just don't make us, like they
Used to, but take away our make-up
And you see the scarred tissue on us, from all the break ups
All the tears we've cried, because we couldn't say what
We felt, for years we've been taught it's not in our make-up
Our peers jeer' callin' our tears "gay-stuff"
So, the belts on our hearts we tighten, and our mouths we tape-shut
Fuck with all this posturing, I just need a big hug
I'm tired of being Superman, I'm hanging my cape-up
I, just wanna be that guy
With the suit and with the neck tie
The one that every girl likes
And
I, just wanna be the mack type
He can always make 'em act right
Isn't he lucky or am, I, blind?
So, what am I, 29, almost thirty?
No prospects of love 'cause spelled backwards, the wording says it's
Evol (evil), but I think I'm just afraid of people hurting
Me, and every chance for love I keep diverting
So I keep my distance, I should really seek assistance
But, I vow to maintain and keep consistent
I don't wanna love nobody, I just wanna meet some bitches
No I don't, this isn't me, who is this speakin? This is
Not what I was taught, gotta stop all of this pos-turin' and
Ego driven, cockiness jus' talkin' up a cocks-man image
'Cause it's not me, nah...
I just wanna go, back to the point, where I can give my heart's key
To that special someone who wants half of every heart beat
And then one day, we get to see our kid up in that car seat
See, really I'm just a softy
I don't wanna front no more, I just wanna rock me
(For this game of sex & ego - used to have a set of box seats
But I don't want 'em no more, here, you can cop these)
I, don't wanna be that guy
With the suit and with the neck tie
The one that not every girl likes
'Cause
I, looked at him under a blacklight
And then I lit him with a back-light
And then I realized he's got no heart
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10. |
Natural High
03:22
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You should be by b.a....b.y.
Never seen a better lookin' pair of...Levi's
When you wear em man, I can't even...sleep nights
How'd you get them hips wit a boom in that petite size?
I admit that when I see ya ridin' solo
It make me wanna kick it with ya like a dojo
Baby girl always runnin' like Flo Jo
If you're scared of goin' fast then we can go slow...
Just put your hand inside my hand girl, we can
Cross the country in a van or in a camper, lay under
The stars, see all the planets in a pattern,
Because the Universe is adamant we act first,
And ask questions later, I don't even have doubts
When go to bed exhausted and I pass out
And wake up lookin' at you, all I do to act out
Is kiss you on your lips and slowly move my hand south.
I love when you kiss me
I love when I know it's jus'
Me and you this will go down in history
As my sanctuary baby I could never picture you gone.
Even when you miss me
I'm out there on the road an', hittin'
Motels, I know that you're with me
All I gotta do is, just picture you and I'm home.
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